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Post by Ashleigh on Apr 5, 2005 13:29:36 GMT -5
as some of you know i had a bit of a problem a couple of months ago, and i would just like to say i,ve given into temption again, about an hour ago. I'm sorry to those who believed i could get through this but there is no way out. I can't talk to some one and thrust my problems on to them so i have to take it out on myself so i feel better, so i know i'm still here, and that it's not just everyone ignoring me. I found some cool friends on holiday in Austria but i seem to have lost them, they dont want to say hello and i dont feel as if they want me there. I wish i could just dissappear.
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Post by Cheaplikeyourmum on Apr 5, 2005 14:37:49 GMT -5
This is really sad. I'm sorry you're unhappy.
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Post by luvurfeableweiners on Apr 5, 2005 16:32:14 GMT -5
I wont say that I am sorry because I have gone through all that, and I hated when people said they were sorry because I didnt think they really understud. When I moved to CA I think I found the inner me, like my get away drug, I dont really know what that means, but it helped me alot.
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Post by Trishee on Apr 5, 2005 17:34:48 GMT -5
Ash, you know we love you and want to help you with whatever you need. Please let us help you. *hug*
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Post by FourtyFour on Apr 5, 2005 18:56:40 GMT -5
you wanna dissapear, i did too, but in a much more violent way than you prob want to
first of all *teddy bear hug* second of all
just take a deep breath, and relax, maybe write in a journal or something
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Post by HarshReality on Apr 6, 2005 5:59:14 GMT -5
I can't talk to some one and thrust my problems on to them so i have to take it out on myself so i feel better Now that is where you're wrong, you're meant to "thrust" your problems onto other people. It helps you through things.....and like i've said before. You can always thrust onto us |
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Post by Ramone on Apr 6, 2005 14:18:53 GMT -5
I'm good for thrusting problems onto because I've been there, so if you need to talk, I'm here...
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Post by Kay on Apr 6, 2005 15:21:46 GMT -5
You can thrust your problems here, we'll always listen! I hope you feel better/happier and stuff soon  *hug* |
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Post by Ashleigh on Apr 7, 2005 13:42:08 GMT -5
it's just my head is so messed up i actually dont know why i do this, if someone was to ask me questions like:'how are you feeling?' i dont know how to answer because i dont actually know myself at all. i dont remember my time when i was little, i didnt even know that when i was growing up my mum would sit me infront of the tv so she could look after my sisters, maybe the reason i don't know is because i was scared all the time, of my parents if i did anything wrong, of strangers, of my sisters if they were to bully me, and thats not the way to live, i do feel there is a way to stop this but it's not something i want to suggest, cos if it gets read by the wrong person i'll get embarrassed and ill want to be alone, i dont want to be alone, thats when it all happens.
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Post by HarshReality on Apr 7, 2005 14:42:27 GMT -5
You can always go to a councillor with your problems....it might help
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Post by Ashleigh on Apr 7, 2005 15:00:12 GMT -5
talking to someone who has read from a book how they suppose i feel inside wont help sorry, this is my counselling, it f*cking kills.
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Post by Scott on Apr 8, 2005 9:51:50 GMT -5
you can always talk to me if you need somebody to talk to. ive been through most things life can throw at me and seem to be good at cheering people up.
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Post by Ashleigh on Apr 9, 2005 5:35:13 GMT -5
thanks, but i cant go and talk to people they just need to keep bugging me until i tell them whats going on, it's my secret and i dont want the wrong people knowing.
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Post by Ramone on Apr 9, 2005 21:47:20 GMT -5
Well, I know how that feels, so I won't bug you about it...
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Post by SuperTashaWeiner on Apr 10, 2005 10:28:59 GMT -5
yea in the end u just gotta do what u thinks best or u wont feel right about it
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*hug*
